a poem by vADrEvu C.V. bhadruDu(!)
Prasad A. Chodavarapu (prasad@kodak.com)
Sun, 10 Nov 1996 15:26:09 -0500
the recent disasters back home couldn't highlight
it more effectively. here we are in an alien land,
apparently, to make a living or much more than that
when our need is actually there, back where our roots are.
probably, not a day passes when each one of us suffers
from one more _gAyam_ from our inability to rise and serve
our people. as _vADrEvu cinavIra bhadruDu_ says in this poem,
_enni gAyAlu kalistE oka jIvitam_
i still remember that one posting on SCIT sometime ago
that gave vent to the author's injured feelings about
her inability to serve and pleaded with everyone to
do that one bit of introspection. couldn't remind me
more strongly of how ashamed i felt when a volunteer
from vivekananda kendra, kanyakumari asked me an innocent
question on our way to _samudra snAnam_- "what to do u want
to do when u r grown up, my boy?" i was just 14 back then.
still, the air of service in that place made me hate myself
when i murmered shyly - 'an IAS officer'.
no, i didn't pursue that childhood dream. still, i am here,
fighting within myself, and probably, so does everyone of us.
its this struggle that is reflected in the poem _gAyam numci
gAyAniki_ by vADrEvu cina vIra bhadruDu.
source: kavitA, O kavitA
telugu vacana kavitA samkalanam,'81-'90
pallavi publications, vijayawada.
gAyam numci gAyAniki
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#bismillah khan bismilla khan#lAnE shahanAyi vinpistUnTADu
vAkiTlO bOgan ville tIge bOgan ville puvvulE pUstUnTundi.
nannu mAtramE nEnu pOlcukOlEka pOtunTAnu
Sayana samayAniki nA dinacarya nemaru vEsukunnapuDu
nA rUpaSakalAlu cellA cedarayi AndOlana paDatAnu
ASimcinaTlugA nA pAtrani pOshimcina kshaNAlu kUDA
nA parAjayapu cihnAlni kappipuccalEkapOtAyi
bhAvincukunna nA svIyOjvalatva mantA
nA asAphalyam mundu velavelabOtundi
oppukOlEni nA aparipUrNata
artharAtri eppuDO kalallO vikRtamgA guccukunTumdi.
kALLu kALLa paridhilO cEtulu cEtula paridhilO
sakalAvayavAlu tama sthAnAllo nilci jIvitAnni naDuputAyi
evarO oka mugdha parimaLa bharitamaina rOjapuvvuni
ii yantram daggara parAkugA marcipOtAru
appuDu nAlOnci vicitramaina purugu aa puvvuni SpRSistumdi
nA malina sparSa nAku teliyakanA? ayinA,
omTi numDI jiDDU kArutOnnA
nA nEtrAllO tEjassidI ani cUpaDam mAnanu
mAsipOyina guDDala mIda alamkArAlu kappi
atithulni cirunavvutO AhvAnimcaDam mAnanu
kAni vERu purugu lAgA svayam kRtAparAdham
mUlAnni Sithilam cEstU unTumdi
puvvula SAluvA kimda dEham rugmatatO kshINistUmTundi
ilA prapancam mIdaku visirina praSnArthakAlu
evaru cUDakunDA tirigi vacci nannE nATukunnappuDu
ika, ArOpincE svEccani kUDa kOlpOtAnu
pApam lAnTi cIkaTlOnO, dAniki AvalnO
oka kAnti bimduvuni vUhistAnu
aa prakASa lESam eduTa nA jivitamanTE idI ani
ASAbhangAla jAbitA ASagA umcutAnu
nA gAyAlaku evaru pUcI paDatAru?
E vyAdhulnO vATilO Uhinci evaLLaki vALLu tappuku pOgA
mAnani gAyam numci marO gAyAniki aparAdham allukonTumdi.
enni gAyAlu kalistE oka jIvitam
tIrAla madhya gOdAvari gOdAvarilAnE pravahistumdi
oDDuna pakIrlu pakIrla lAnE unTAru
alA nAku nityam tArasapaDE kamThAllO, dEhAllO E mArpU unDadu
vATi madhya naDavAlsinapuDallA
namgiritanamtO sigguTo vamkarlu pOyE gomtutO
balamgA svaccangA ukkulAnTi okkamATayinA palakAlani unTumdi.
apahAsyAla madhya avahELanala madhya
avanatamavutunna nA Atmani dhairyamgA nilapAlani umTundi
evaDi nEtrAllO aSruvulni cUsinA
AtmadAnam cEsi marI pOrADAlani unTumdi
kAni niraparAdhulaku mAtramE
aSOpahatulainapuDu kannIru peTTukunE arhata umdani telisi
dUramgA, maunamgA kimcidasUyatO nilabaDipOtAnu
mancu lAgA nA mIda nAjAli hRdayAnni manTa peTTistumTE
EDavalEka, eduru tiragalEka
verrigA oka navvu navvutAnu nissahAyamgA,
#bismillah khan bismillah khan# lAnE shehanAyi vinpistunTADu.
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-vADrEvu cina vIrabhadruDu
"nirvikapla sangItam" kavitA sampuTi, 1986
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